Analyze This

Today we did the dreaded Sperm Analysis. All I can say is that that was about the most humiliating thing we've ever done. Giving birth was less humiliating. Next time I'm locking him in the bathroom with the cup. If there is a next time. J mainly didn't want to do the whole test because he's secretly afraid that it will point the finger at him. While I know that 40% of fertility problems are male, I really don't think it's him because we've conceived twice now and it hasn't really been that long. He does have age as a factor: he'll be 46 in April. But I guess we'll wait and see. I'm hoping to hear from Dr. S tomorrow with those results and my initial bloodwork results.

And of course it's the time in the cycle when we can start to obsess about possible "symptoms". I tell myself not to do it, but if you're reading this, you probably know that's easier said than done. So, first off, there's this sinus thing that won't go away. I've slept sitting in a chair 4 nights in a row now. If I am carrying a child, I'm labeling it my problem child already. Then there's the mood swings. I'm not normally prone to those but today I went through a period of intense depression where I actually threw a temper tantrum that rivaled G any day of the week (I think I've figured out where she learned to throw things when she's angry). A couple hours later I was smiling and happy.

I guess I'll test next Saturday. I think I only have one or two internet cheapie tests left. I'm debating whether I should plan a trip to Dollar Tree to stock up or just try not testing.

Yeah right.