Real Life

The problem with letting the Little Miss stay with friends for a night is that she comes back seemingly having forgotten the usual house limits. I don't expect my friend to enforce rules the way I do. When the Little Miss is over there, she gets 100% attention 100% of the time by a crowd of people who are entranced by her. If she so much as sniffles there is someone by her side to see to her supposed need.

I'm cool with that. I think it's good for everyone to have that experience every once in a while. But she's learning the flip side of that lesson: namely that it's a once-in-a-while thing. This is everyday life.

So she comes home this morning and immediately begins testing the boundaries. Every single one of them I'm sure.

The other problem with being away from my Little Miss is that when she comes back, even though it's only been 24 hours, I can see that she has grown. I guess it's that little bit of distance that makes me see her with new eyes. Plus she learns new words over there and there are lots of other people's mannerisms to pick up. My "baby" is less and less of a "baby" every day. I see now why so many people space their kids about 2 years apart. Some days I just want to turn her back into the cute, cuddly baby she was mere months ago.

Alas, time marches on. The biological clock ticks louder and louder every day. I'm approaching another ovulation. It's been somewhat freeing this month not to temp or plan to use OPKs. I haven't really thought about it much. According to fertility friend, I should ovulate on the 14th. J gets back from a trip the evening of the 13th. So we theoretically have a shot at it this month. Most of the 2WW will be consumed with holiday activities and my test date would be about the day I get back from visiting family over Christmas. I'm still researching a specialist and waiting for recommendations. I hope to have an appointment made early next week.

I love being able to make plans and feeling like I'm in control of something. Anything.