Monday, April 30, 2007

One Week

I thought I would post a one week old picture. Physically I am feeling much better. My abdominal pain is gone and the swelling and pain of the stitches is minimal as long as I'm careful when I walk around. I'm in that in-between state where I feel like I could be doing things but I know it would set me back if I do too much. For now I am hanging out mostly upstairs and doing easy things like putting away a few pieces of laundry every now and then.

Emotionally, the depression is settling in much sooner than it did with G. Maybe because I'm just more aware of it this time around. J totally does not understand that you can't just smile your way out of depression and his being unable to understand what's going on with me makes him back off and keep his distance. One of the items on my to-do list is to start researching treatments for depression and their impact on nursing. I am definitely going to seek treatment this time around, sooner rather than later, but first I need to know what the options are and be informed.

Katherine is doing great. Breastfeeding still has me a little worried but she seems to be doing fine and my milk supply seems to be coming in okay. Nights are challenging because she just wants to be held all night. Days are easier because she is content in the swing or on the floor. I've figured out a technique of sleeping in the recliner with her at night that keeps her content and me reasonably well rested.

Things with G are much harder. I can tell that she is stressed and she acts up because of it, stressing me and causing me to sometimes take my frustrations out on her, creating a vicious cycle. Hopefully now that I am feeling a little better I will be able to spend more quality time with her. She did sleep much better last night so I'm holding out hope that we've hit the low point and it gets all better from here. She loves Katherine though and is always quick to give her a kiss or pay attention to her when she cries. J had something to do today so he took her to the sitter's. It's nice to have a bit of a break with just me and the baby!


Josefina said...

Wow, I didn't have much time last week to check on your blog, I think the last time I left a comment, your Katherine was already born!!!
I read everything: delivery, aftermath, everything!!!
And wow what a quick delivery!!! I'm so sorry you had to pass through the D&C though, but I'm very relieved that everything went fine!!!!
And well, your baby is absolutely GEORGOUS!!!!!!! She's so so cute!!!!!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!!
And about your depression, I too think you should seek help, so you can feel better soon!!! Good luck with that and congratulations again!!!

SaraS-P said...

Definitely check on the depression before it gets bad. Talking about it and being aware can be so important.

She is so cute. Have fun getting to know her!

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you are being proactive about the depression. I wish I had been. You'll feel so much better in the long run.

She is absolutely beautiful - they both are.

Feel better soon!

cat said...

First congratulations to you all. I'm so sorry that what came directly after was so physically traumatic for you. That you and Katherine are ok is a blessing.

You might want to contact Aliza from who breastfed, or pumped for a long time and went the natural path for depression treatment. It's great that you are seeking answers for your treatment quickly.

*hugs* to you. hang in there.

MeLissa said...

Hello. :)
I happened upon your blog via the statistics on mine. I just wanted to congratulate you on your beautiful little angel and give you a suggestion re the depression thing - fish oil.

Omega 3s are often great at helping relieve some of the symptoms according to Mr. Chiropractor-to-be hubby and much better for you and baby. You can find capsules at most health food stores...look for cold pressed varieties. If you want more info, let me know and I'll get the hubby to give the scoop. Oh, and as a side benefit, they also are excellent at decreasing you can kill two annoyances with one stone!

Congratulations again on a beautiful baby girl!