It's hard to believe that I am just now today 4 weeks and I've already had three betas done! I feel so much better about this pregnancy than the last one, though, and I wholly attribute that to being able to watch my numbers rise. So, today my beta was at 354, up from 131 on Monday. That's a doubling time of about 33 hours, about the same as from my beta on Friday to Monday. I keep reminding myself that these rapidly rising numbers don't guarantee anything. But for now they give me hope. I'll go in for another beta on Friday. We're leaving for a trip on Saturday (tentatively depending on Ernesto!), so I probably won't get to check it again till the Friday after that.
I have no real symptoms yet. I remember with G that the symptoms didn't manifest themselves until about 6 weeks. I remember every day looking and hoping for signs and I even started to hope that I would start barfing, just to make myself "feel" pregnant! After I stop doing the betas I guess my next milestone will be looking for pregnancy symptoms! I have been noticeably more tired the last two days but I could contribute that to my recent sleeping habits. I suspect those habits will be changing in the near future!
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Waiting
Every 6 months J has to have a full physical in order to keep his flying license. Every 12 months he has to have an EKG. During this one, the BIL saw some abnormalities that he wanted to check out. So we got up early this morning and went to the hospital for an ultrasound on J's heart. I didn't get to see it but he said it was pretty neat. We're both trying not to think too hard about what problems might be turned up from this. J has always been healthy and has always exercised regularly. But still you think about those athletes you hear about that keel over from a heart attack. Another thing to wait on.
While we were at the hospital I got my blood drawn. I had a bruise from Monday and the lady today was in a big hurry so now I've got one about twice the size. Ouch. I guess we'll have to go to the other arm Friday which I'm not looking forward to. So I'm just waiting on those results.
Waiting....
While we were at the hospital I got my blood drawn. I had a bruise from Monday and the lady today was in a big hurry so now I've got one about twice the size. Ouch. I guess we'll have to go to the other arm Friday which I'm not looking forward to. So I'm just waiting on those results.
Waiting....
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Congrats yet?
I'm still managing to sail on the euphoric seas of my beta yesterday. Funny how something as simple as a number can determine one's mood. Lorem says "Can I say 'Congratulations' yet?" which had me thinking a lot last night. Will there be a magical moment in this pregnancy when I can say "yes, you can congratulate me because I'm going to have a baby"? I think the answer would have to be no. I think it will be a very gradual process of accepting that this pregnancy might work out. I foresee that the process will take about 8 more months! But I've decided to be happy just the same. I don't know if it will work out. I don't know if I'll have another miscarriage. But I do know that I got pregnant on the second try since my surgery and that's a far cry from the year it took to get pregnant after my first m/c. And right now I am pregnant. So by golly I'm going to be happy for myself and try to enjoy it.
I'm writing these words mostly so that I can re-read them in a week or two and remind myself of this feeling!
The RE's office finally called me yesterday afternoon. They didn't have my second beta results yet so I told the nurse what it was. She said that was great. We also clarified the chain of events. I will do betas until I top 1000. Then we can schedule an ultrasound which will take place around 8 weeks. If everything looks good at that ultrasound, the doc will release me to a regular OB. I'm disappointed that I won't be getting more ultrasounds and more monitoring and that I can't stay with him a little longer (past the 10 weeks of my first m/c). On the flip side, I'm hoping that by the 8 week ultrasound we'll be able to see a heartbeat (I have a retroverted uterus which makes seeing things happen a little later). At this point I'm planning to go back to the OB who did my HSG and I'm sure that she will do extra ultrasounds as I feel I need them. I will probably ask for appts every 2 weeks when I first start with her. So, I'm not looking any further than the next milestone (!) but I feel a little better having a tentative plan.
You know, just in case things work out....
I'm writing these words mostly so that I can re-read them in a week or two and remind myself of this feeling!
The RE's office finally called me yesterday afternoon. They didn't have my second beta results yet so I told the nurse what it was. She said that was great. We also clarified the chain of events. I will do betas until I top 1000. Then we can schedule an ultrasound which will take place around 8 weeks. If everything looks good at that ultrasound, the doc will release me to a regular OB. I'm disappointed that I won't be getting more ultrasounds and more monitoring and that I can't stay with him a little longer (past the 10 weeks of my first m/c). On the flip side, I'm hoping that by the 8 week ultrasound we'll be able to see a heartbeat (I have a retroverted uterus which makes seeing things happen a little later). At this point I'm planning to go back to the OB who did my HSG and I'm sure that she will do extra ultrasounds as I feel I need them. I will probably ask for appts every 2 weeks when I first start with her. So, I'm not looking any further than the next milestone (!) but I feel a little better having a tentative plan.
You know, just in case things work out....
Monday, August 28, 2006
Milestone: First Beta Results
131.
One hundred thirty one.
That's a doubling time of every 35ish hours. The average for 14dpo (this is 12dpo for me) is 48 and the range is 17 to 119. So from a theoretical standpoint, things are looking really good right now. I told J that this news out to carry me for a good 24 hours. I just picked up the results from the lab so I don't know what the RE's office will have to say about things.
One hundred thirty one.
That's a doubling time of every 35ish hours. The average for 14dpo (this is 12dpo for me) is 48 and the range is 17 to 119. So from a theoretical standpoint, things are looking really good right now. I told J that this news out to carry me for a good 24 hours. I just picked up the results from the lab so I don't know what the RE's office will have to say about things.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Happy and sad
I'm doing pretty good today. I even managed to convince myself not to POAS this morning! Trying to hold out for my second beta tomorrow. I went ahead and put up a ticker on my blog. It says I'm 3w4d and I have 255 days left. That seems like an eternity to me when all I really want to dio is make it to 3w5d right now. The past days have been a real roller coaster for me. One moment I'm up and happy and optimistic; the next I'm down, very low down. I think this pregnancy will be a series of milestones: if I can just double at the next beta, if I can just get to 1000 for the ultrasound, if I can just see a heartbeat. One step at a time.
I've spent a good part of the day today reading about the plane crash in Lexington, KY. It was a 50 passenger commuter jet which is the same kind J flies, only for a different company. I think most people see stories like this and are sad for the passengers' families. I saw the story and immediately thought about the pilots of course, picturing myself in their families' shoes. It's a dangerous, scary world out there.
I've spent a good part of the day today reading about the plane crash in Lexington, KY. It was a 50 passenger commuter jet which is the same kind J flies, only for a different company. I think most people see stories like this and are sad for the passengers' families. I saw the story and immediately thought about the pilots of course, picturing myself in their families' shoes. It's a dangerous, scary world out there.
Friday, August 25, 2006
The Bat Story that just won't die
While G was in the bathtub tonight I decided to peak my head in my room (I've been keeping the door closed) and see if the bat had decided to come out. Sure enough, he was in there swooping around. So I called (and woke up!) my friends and they said they'd be right over. They got here and we all 3 went in and started looking. And looking. And looking. No bat. Where is the damn bat?! Finally after probably 15 minutes of looking, my friend J spotted the bat on my bath towel which was slung over the top of the shower stall. After probably another 15 minutes of trying to decide the best way to catch him, T finally coaxed him into a small plastic water bottle. Turns out this was not the same bat: this was just a little baby bat.
So it looks like we might have a colony of bats somewhere in the attic. I'll admit it: time to call the professionals. T said my chimney is closed up pretty tight but there's a fairly big crack in the wall on the side of the chimney (old house, remember) and we think maybe that's where they're coming in. I plan to dig through some of my old fabric tomorrow and try to rig up a little screen so that, if they are coming in there, that might stop them.
I titled one of my posts about the first bat with "Conclusion". Looks like that was just the beginning of a story, probably a rather expensive story.
So it looks like we might have a colony of bats somewhere in the attic. I'll admit it: time to call the professionals. T said my chimney is closed up pretty tight but there's a fairly big crack in the wall on the side of the chimney (old house, remember) and we think maybe that's where they're coming in. I plan to dig through some of my old fabric tomorrow and try to rig up a little screen so that, if they are coming in there, that might stop them.
I titled one of my posts about the first bat with "Conclusion". Looks like that was just the beginning of a story, probably a rather expensive story.
The Numbers are In
I decided to go get my beta from the lab this evening since the RE's office didn't call me. The number [drum roll please] is 33.7.
At first I thought: that's low. The more I thought about it though, I realized that any number I heard at this point would have been too low in my mind! So I finally got home and consulted Dr. Google. The lowest numbers I can find are for 14DPO where the average beta is 48 and the range is 17-119. So according to that I am probably okay at this point.
Of course I fully realize that nothing can really be determined until Monday when I get another beta done. Until then I guess I will just have to obsess.
Wow: I just calculated out potential doublings. If I double every 72 hours, I should theoretically top 1000 by the end of next week. So we could be looking at an ultrasound in less than 2 weeks. That's a lot of assumptions in that thinking but for now it will have to do.
At first I thought: that's low. The more I thought about it though, I realized that any number I heard at this point would have been too low in my mind! So I finally got home and consulted Dr. Google. The lowest numbers I can find are for 14DPO where the average beta is 48 and the range is 17-119. So according to that I am probably okay at this point.
Of course I fully realize that nothing can really be determined until Monday when I get another beta done. Until then I guess I will just have to obsess.
Wow: I just calculated out potential doublings. If I double every 72 hours, I should theoretically top 1000 by the end of next week. So we could be looking at an ultrasound in less than 2 weeks. That's a lot of assumptions in that thinking but for now it will have to do.
Feelings
Thank you so much for all your well-wishes! And thank you doubly for not saying that huge C-word like the nurse at the RE's office did. That word scares me right now. I hope it won't always but it does right now.
Just to set the record straight: I was being rather tongue-in-cheek about the progesterone causing a BFP. Rest assured that I shall continue the progesterone, probably with more diligence than ever before now.
I'm feeling pretty good. Definitely feeling last night's lack of sleep! I've been rather crampy this afternoon but it helps to be able to go look back at G's chart and see that I had cramps at this point with her as well. The other thing I noticed is that at 8dpo with her, I had a bout of nausea like last night's.
I'm definitely scared. No doubt about it. I want so much to believe that this is IT. That this pregnancy will somehow turn out okay. If I say that to people who've never experienced a loss I know that they will be quick to assure me that it will, that they somehow just know that this one will go okay. Of course no one can know that. And it helps so much to have a community of people who can identify with that.
At the same time I'm encouraged, just by the fact that I tested positive so early. With G, I got a BFP at 10dpo. My first m/c I didn't get a BFP until like 6 or 7 weeks. The second m/c I got a very faint positive at about 14dpo. So I'm definitely encouraged.
I decided to go ahead and call the RE's office and see what they had to say. The protocol is this: I did my first beta this afternoon and I'll do another one on Monday. I'll do them every 2 or 3 days from there. Once I hit a magic 1000 I'll go in for my first ultrasound. Then I suppose we'll talk about where to go from there. At this moment I want to stay with the RE as long as possible. But I'm really trying to focus just on this moment. It's just too scary right now to look any further than that.
Just to set the record straight: I was being rather tongue-in-cheek about the progesterone causing a BFP. Rest assured that I shall continue the progesterone, probably with more diligence than ever before now.
I'm feeling pretty good. Definitely feeling last night's lack of sleep! I've been rather crampy this afternoon but it helps to be able to go look back at G's chart and see that I had cramps at this point with her as well. The other thing I noticed is that at 8dpo with her, I had a bout of nausea like last night's.
I'm definitely scared. No doubt about it. I want so much to believe that this is IT. That this pregnancy will somehow turn out okay. If I say that to people who've never experienced a loss I know that they will be quick to assure me that it will, that they somehow just know that this one will go okay. Of course no one can know that. And it helps so much to have a community of people who can identify with that.
At the same time I'm encouraged, just by the fact that I tested positive so early. With G, I got a BFP at 10dpo. My first m/c I didn't get a BFP until like 6 or 7 weeks. The second m/c I got a very faint positive at about 14dpo. So I'm definitely encouraged.
I decided to go ahead and call the RE's office and see what they had to say. The protocol is this: I did my first beta this afternoon and I'll do another one on Monday. I'll do them every 2 or 3 days from there. Once I hit a magic 1000 I'll go in for my first ultrasound. Then I suppose we'll talk about where to go from there. At this moment I want to stay with the RE as long as possible. But I'm really trying to focus just on this moment. It's just too scary right now to look any further than that.
My Day So Far
4:55: After tossing and turning for what seems like all night, finally decide to get up and pee
4:56: Put the pee on the HPT
4:57: Crawl back in bed because I'm actually cold for some reason
5:10: Stumble back in the bathroom to check the test. Damn. I waited more than the prescribed 10 minutes to check it and there's two lines there. What now?
5:11: Like any sane, rational person, I squeeze out a little more pee for another test
5:12: Eagle eye the test
5:13: Eagle eye the test
5:14: While eagle eyeing the test, realize that there is indeed a second line there.
I'm 9dpo and I'm afraid to draw any conclusions here. For lack of any other explanations, I must conclude that double lines on HPTs are yet another side effect of progesterone.
Damn.
I'm scared.
Oh yeah, It's 5:35 in the morning and my bat is back, flying around my room. Again.
4:56: Put the pee on the HPT
4:57: Crawl back in bed because I'm actually cold for some reason
5:10: Stumble back in the bathroom to check the test. Damn. I waited more than the prescribed 10 minutes to check it and there's two lines there. What now?
5:11: Like any sane, rational person, I squeeze out a little more pee for another test
5:12: Eagle eye the test
5:13: Eagle eye the test
5:14: While eagle eyeing the test, realize that there is indeed a second line there.
I'm 9dpo and I'm afraid to draw any conclusions here. For lack of any other explanations, I must conclude that double lines on HPTs are yet another side effect of progesterone.
Damn.
I'm scared.
Oh yeah, It's 5:35 in the morning and my bat is back, flying around my room. Again.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
He's a Keeper!
This evening, a little while after I did my progesterone, I started feeling really nauseous. I mean really bad. So I called my hubby up (he left this afternoon for a 3 day trip) and asked him if our lunch had made him sick.
k.: Are you sick from our lunch today?
j.: Nope
k.: Not at all? You didn't feel anything?
j.: No, why are you sick?
k.: Yeah, I'm not feeling very good at all.
j.: You think it was lunch?
k.: Well, I guess it could have been something from supper last night.
j.: Maybe it's consequences*
* consequences, of course, being what happens if you're not careful with all that wild whoopee we're forced to endure each month in the name of making a baby.
J's not very comfortable talking about bodily functions, least of all about reproduction. So I don't tell him when it's "that" time of the month and I don't tell him when I get a peak on my OPK and I don't tell him when I'm testing with HPTs. And he's happy with that. So I have to be a little proud of him that he's put 2 and 2 together (the period of really wild whoopee every day is over + I lay down twice a day for my progesterone) and he's figured out that it might be time for some news. Which is really kinda cute in my opinion.
Well, since nausea is one of the side effects listed for progesterone I'm not reading too much in to it. And I'm still rather convinced it's something I ate. But I'm definitely giving my hubby brownie points for thinking that it could possibly be something else!
k.: Are you sick from our lunch today?
j.: Nope
k.: Not at all? You didn't feel anything?
j.: No, why are you sick?
k.: Yeah, I'm not feeling very good at all.
j.: You think it was lunch?
k.: Well, I guess it could have been something from supper last night.
j.: Maybe it's consequences*
* consequences, of course, being what happens if you're not careful with all that wild whoopee we're forced to endure each month in the name of making a baby.
J's not very comfortable talking about bodily functions, least of all about reproduction. So I don't tell him when it's "that" time of the month and I don't tell him when I get a peak on my OPK and I don't tell him when I'm testing with HPTs. And he's happy with that. So I have to be a little proud of him that he's put 2 and 2 together (the period of really wild whoopee every day is over + I lay down twice a day for my progesterone) and he's figured out that it might be time for some news. Which is really kinda cute in my opinion.
Well, since nausea is one of the side effects listed for progesterone I'm not reading too much in to it. And I'm still rather convinced it's something I ate. But I'm definitely giving my hubby brownie points for thinking that it could possibly be something else!
Looking forward to vacation!
I just knew this morning that I'd get that elusive third high temp and that FF would reward me by saying that my chart was triphasic. But I didn't. So life goes on. This morning I counted up my HPTs and stored them in the cabinet within reach in the bathroom. All ready to go tomorrow morning because, you know, I am just a glutton for the punishment of BFNs.
J leaves for a trip this evening. When he gets back Sunday night, he will be off for almost 3 weeks! For about 5 of those days we plan to go visit relatives in the Carolinas. We will also hopefully take a couple of days for just us. Whether we go winery touring or something a bit less alcoholic depends on the results of this weekend. The bad news is that we will be visiting the Carolinas during my round of Clomid. I've got to read up on the side effects so that I can be on my guard!
J leaves for a trip this evening. When he gets back Sunday night, he will be off for almost 3 weeks! For about 5 of those days we plan to go visit relatives in the Carolinas. We will also hopefully take a couple of days for just us. Whether we go winery touring or something a bit less alcoholic depends on the results of this weekend. The bad news is that we will be visiting the Carolinas during my round of Clomid. I've got to read up on the side effects so that I can be on my guard!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Must Read
I'm sure this site will be making its way around the net soon. If you haven't seen it already, you simply must! Not only does the guy have a gift for words and humor, he gives the perspective from the "other side of the bed" as he puts it. I seriously might have to give this to J if we end up having to go the frozen route. I'm sure he'll appreciate it!!
Clomid, Here we come
I got a call this morning from my RE's nurse. I have to say: they are always prompt at returning calls. So, it looks like I will start Clomid on CD3, then go in for an ultrasound at CD13 or 14. If I have some follies that look good, I'll do a trigger shot. I was a little worried about the cost of that after hearing Lorem's cost horror stories. But the HCG trigger is the cheap part of it, less than $40 she said. So she is calling both those in for me. This will be the same pharmacy that has somehow managed to get my prometrium covered so I'm crossing my fingers that they might be able to do the same magic with this stuff. The nurse even offered to call it in to a mail order pharmacy for me which I suspect would be cheaper but I decided to support my local pharmacy (it's truly a local one down the street that even delivers if you need it) and see how much it costs.
I've decided I won't pick up the prescriptions right away. I mean, I am only 7DPO and I haven't totally written this cycle off. And of course, the second high temp on my chart means nothing. Remember that. It's just the progesterone.
The nurse also asked me about hubby's "availability" once I got the trigger. I explained his unusual schedules and she said they can always freeze some sperm and do an IUI. The cost for that would be $183 for freezing and $319 for the wash and IUI, so about $500. While I don't really want to spend that much and I know it would be a big task to persuade John, I don't want to go through all that medicine and then not have sperm at the right time. But the nurse and I agreed that we can cross that bridge when we come to it.
So there you have it: a plan already for the next cycle. And we haven't even finished this cycle. I will start testing Saturday, maybe Friday.
I've decided I won't pick up the prescriptions right away. I mean, I am only 7DPO and I haven't totally written this cycle off. And of course, the second high temp on my chart means nothing. Remember that. It's just the progesterone.
The nurse also asked me about hubby's "availability" once I got the trigger. I explained his unusual schedules and she said they can always freeze some sperm and do an IUI. The cost for that would be $183 for freezing and $319 for the wash and IUI, so about $500. While I don't really want to spend that much and I know it would be a big task to persuade John, I don't want to go through all that medicine and then not have sperm at the right time. But the nurse and I agreed that we can cross that bridge when we come to it.
So there you have it: a plan already for the next cycle. And we haven't even finished this cycle. I will start testing Saturday, maybe Friday.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Waiting
Really nothing much to report today; at least nothing that can top the bat story. This morning Gracie and I went to a playgroup that was hosted by my friend L. It's a nice group of women but, as hard as I listened to all the conversations, I didn't hear a single one that didn't center around the kids. Well, that may be a little unfair but the vast majority of talk was about the kids. Yesterday J and I had a long conversation trying to debug a problem with the website that we run. I found myself thinking: I miss this! I miss talking about computers with someone who knows what I'm talking about. So I decided to start my own group: former computer programmers, now Moms, who want to talk about something other than kids. I'm sure it's going to be a thriving group given a little time.
At any rate, G had a lot of fun playing with all her friend's toys. The funny thing I noticed, though, is that she definitely has a touch of my personality. She will jump right in on things that interest her but she prefers to do it alone. She was quite content to spend most of the time in the area of the room with the couch, playing on the pillows. I don't think she's going to be painfully shy like me but I do think she will always march to the beat of her own drummer and meet life on her own terms.
I am now 6 days into a 12 or 13 day luteal phase. So about halfway through. I'm not reading anything at all into the fact that my temp went up a little this morning. Nope, not reading anything into that. It's the progesterone you know. And I'm sure it will go down tomorrow. Seriously, it's so hard not to read something into every little thing. I decided to go ahead and call my RE about doing Clomid next month, so I left a message this afternoon about that. Just waiting.... waiting.... waiting....
At any rate, G had a lot of fun playing with all her friend's toys. The funny thing I noticed, though, is that she definitely has a touch of my personality. She will jump right in on things that interest her but she prefers to do it alone. She was quite content to spend most of the time in the area of the room with the couch, playing on the pillows. I don't think she's going to be painfully shy like me but I do think she will always march to the beat of her own drummer and meet life on her own terms.
I am now 6 days into a 12 or 13 day luteal phase. So about halfway through. I'm not reading anything at all into the fact that my temp went up a little this morning. Nope, not reading anything into that. It's the progesterone you know. And I'm sure it will go down tomorrow. Seriously, it's so hard not to read something into every little thing. I decided to go ahead and call my RE about doing Clomid next month, so I left a message this afternoon about that. Just waiting.... waiting.... waiting....
Monday, August 21, 2006
Bats in the Belfry: The Conclusion
When last we left off in the bat story, the bat was hiding somewhere in my room. Yesterday evening I decided to open the windows to encourage an exit. I figured the bat was hiding up the chimney. Turns out he was hiding behind the blinds on the window I went to open. I have a nice bruise on my forehead in the shape of a window-sill to prove that I moved faster when he flew out. He flew right to the door and stayed there. He moved over a little bit more onto the wall when I opened the door but it was obvious he wasn't flying anywhere anytime soon. So I decided to call a friend of mine and see if her husband could help me out. They came over and, after we persuded her hubby T that killing the bat in the room was not an option, he was able to capture it in a clear plastic box and we took the bat outside and set him free. So now the bat is out of my house. Here are some pictures to prove that I actually had a bat in my room!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Check it out!
I've decided to start a scrapbooking-related blog to contain that area of my life. So, if your interested, check it out at http://scrappink.blogspot.com/.
Long Night
I slept fitfully last night from about 3am on. I kept waking up hearing these scratching noises. I thought it was squirrels in the attack again although, in my sleepy fog, I was confused about that since we haven't heard them since we had the roof fixed months ago. Finally about 5am I thought I heard something flying (yes flying) around the room and then I felt a rush of wind go by my face. Somehow I knew immediately what it was: a bat! Sure enough I put my glasses on and turned on the light and there he was, swooping around the room looking for a way out. Now, there are some animals that would send me running out the door in cowardly flight. Fortunately, bats are not one of them. But neither did I want to spend the rest of the night with him swooping around. So I elected to go downstairs and let him have the room.
I consulted Google this morning and learned that it was probably a young bat (it's the time of year for them) who just got lost and I should have opened the window and he would have found his way out. I'm not sure how he got in there in the first place though. The chimney in that room is supposed to have a cap. My guess is that they live our attic because J saw one in the basement some months back.
So, it's official: I've got bats in the belfry. At least J will feel vindicated because I never really believed him when he said he'd seen one in the basement. I've got the door closed off for now and I don't see him in there. Either he's hanging out in the chimney or he found access to the attic like he supposedly came in. I will try to figure out how to get the screen off one of our windows (they're old) and hopefully if he is in the chimney he will find his way out at dusk. Still, not looking forward to tonight!
I consulted Google this morning and learned that it was probably a young bat (it's the time of year for them) who just got lost and I should have opened the window and he would have found his way out. I'm not sure how he got in there in the first place though. The chimney in that room is supposed to have a cap. My guess is that they live our attic because J saw one in the basement some months back.
So, it's official: I've got bats in the belfry. At least J will feel vindicated because I never really believed him when he said he'd seen one in the basement. I've got the door closed off for now and I don't see him in there. Either he's hanging out in the chimney or he found access to the attic like he supposedly came in. I will try to figure out how to get the screen off one of our windows (they're old) and hopefully if he is in the chimney he will find his way out at dusk. Still, not looking forward to tonight!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
We're In Beta Now!
In case you haven't heard the buzz, blogger is releasing a new version. The best thing (IMHO) about it is that they now support labels (categories if you will). Of course, you have to convert your template to one of theirs to take advantage of that new feature (which they don't quite make clear up front) but I decided it was a nice enough feature to take the plunge. So, gentle readers, I give you categories. Filter away. Read only what interests you! Enjoy and let me know what you think!
Lines and Letters
This morning I entered my temp and got my ovulation lines! It's a very sad life when one does a happy dance over something so simple. But I really needed that vindication.
Today we went to a balloon rally out our local airport. A little disappointing because it was far too windy for any balloons to actually be on display. We might try our luck again tonight assuming the winds die down.
Okay, I don't often write about my husband's job other than the crazy days he keeps. But I have to vent about something that happened today. Excuse my spellings: I don't want any of his coworkers to find their way here!
For starters, the p1lot group is currently in c0ntract neg0t1at10ns with hubby's company (let's call it Fly-By-Night). The c0ntract expired over a year ago and they started neg0t1at1ng months before that. So there's been plenty of time for lots of tactics to be used on both sides. Before Fly-By-Night, neither J nor I had had any experience with un10ns or 0rganized lab0r. It's been quite an eye-opening experience to say the least. So, recently the un10n dissemenated some information that Fly-By-Night thought to be in violation of the neg0t1at1ng agreement. What did they do? Get this: they type up a nice little letter about how unreasonable the un10n is being. Then they send it out overnight, Saturday delivery via F3d-ex. With over a thousand p1l0ts in the company, how much do you reckon that cost them? The best irony in the letter was that they pointed out that they are asking for absolutely no wage reduct10ns. And that is supposed to be a favor to us. Even though a starting p1l0t at this company qualifies for public assistance in most states well into their second year when employeed by Fly-By-Night. But they are being fair enough to not reduce the salar1es even more. How generous of them. But what I find myself least able to believe is that they don't expect us to count up the cost of this mass-letter and wonder where that money comes from. You might be saying: it's not that much really. Maybe not once. But consider if this is about the third or fourth time they've done this.
So, I am very not happy with Fly-By-Night right now and neither is J. When he first started there 5 years ago it was the opportunity of a lifetime: at his age to get hired and go directly to flying jets is just unheard of. Plus he was able to upgrade to capta1n by the end of his second year there which is phenomenal in this industry. But more and more I can see that the whole situation is just really weighing on him. Given his age, though, it's really unlikely he would be able to find another job as a pil0t. But he doesn't know what else he wants to do. Me, I'm just hoping the company can hold on another year or two until I get down with the RE. And maybe have a baby. It would be nice to have some insurance for that option.
At any rate, life is never dull here!
Today we went to a balloon rally out our local airport. A little disappointing because it was far too windy for any balloons to actually be on display. We might try our luck again tonight assuming the winds die down.
Okay, I don't often write about my husband's job other than the crazy days he keeps. But I have to vent about something that happened today. Excuse my spellings: I don't want any of his coworkers to find their way here!
For starters, the p1lot group is currently in c0ntract neg0t1at10ns with hubby's company (let's call it Fly-By-Night). The c0ntract expired over a year ago and they started neg0t1at1ng months before that. So there's been plenty of time for lots of tactics to be used on both sides. Before Fly-By-Night, neither J nor I had had any experience with un10ns or 0rganized lab0r. It's been quite an eye-opening experience to say the least. So, recently the un10n dissemenated some information that Fly-By-Night thought to be in violation of the neg0t1at1ng agreement. What did they do? Get this: they type up a nice little letter about how unreasonable the un10n is being. Then they send it out overnight, Saturday delivery via F3d-ex. With over a thousand p1l0ts in the company, how much do you reckon that cost them? The best irony in the letter was that they pointed out that they are asking for absolutely no wage reduct10ns. And that is supposed to be a favor to us. Even though a starting p1l0t at this company qualifies for public assistance in most states well into their second year when employeed by Fly-By-Night. But they are being fair enough to not reduce the salar1es even more. How generous of them. But what I find myself least able to believe is that they don't expect us to count up the cost of this mass-letter and wonder where that money comes from. You might be saying: it's not that much really. Maybe not once. But consider if this is about the third or fourth time they've done this.
So, I am very not happy with Fly-By-Night right now and neither is J. When he first started there 5 years ago it was the opportunity of a lifetime: at his age to get hired and go directly to flying jets is just unheard of. Plus he was able to upgrade to capta1n by the end of his second year there which is phenomenal in this industry. But more and more I can see that the whole situation is just really weighing on him. Given his age, though, it's really unlikely he would be able to find another job as a pil0t. But he doesn't know what else he wants to do. Me, I'm just hoping the company can hold on another year or two until I get down with the RE. And maybe have a baby. It would be nice to have some insurance for that option.
At any rate, life is never dull here!
Friday, August 18, 2006
Time for Progesterone
Another high temp today. I can't tell you how comforting it is to feel like I'm in control of something, be it only in control of the knowledge of what should happen next. So, I'll start the progesterone tonight. Last month I did it 12 hours apart at 2am and 2pm but that didn't work out as well as I thought; it really disrupted my sleep at night. So this time I won't try to be quite so tied to exactly every 12 hours. I'll do it in the morning before I get up (around 8am) and as soon as I can after G goes to bed (sometime between 8 and 10pm). I decided to keep temping too. I know that the progesterone is supposed to mess with your temps but I'm curious to see what the effect will be. Plus it will give me something to obsess over till I can start peeing on sticks!
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